how to name it??

was i the ray of hope

you saw,

now, no more i matter,

life ahead, do i see

when you live behind me;

explanations thou shall seek,

for words i dont conceive;

the race

of emotions that you fail to see;

mistakes lie beneath,

pick on them to hurt,

impact is all we see,

ah!

if tomorrow ever comes;

tears heal say some,

bleeding wounds somewhere deep,

scars remain,

years later;

and now shall i search,

another,

for words i crave to hear,

never came did they??

manipulation convenient,

expressions forgotten,

opportunities not sought,

dead on my feet i say,

i find myself sinking,

abyss of emotion,

problems trivial, contributed,

myriad of doubts,

i ever had;

surrounded with many,

and still alone,

when my pen find this piece of paper,

poem that i write,

difference would it make??

"apologise" is the nuance of escape,

have i heard,

communication i fail,

understanding is all i need;

reasons to laugh, i look out,

twitch is all i can do about,

all in the open arms,

where i yearn to rest;

my plea of desperation,

to sort things out,

but will it happen?

when we know,

we are past the phase,

evasiveness we hardly shared,

stands tall blocking my exit,

all that i can think now!!

destination comes by,

i dont reach,

SCABS OF LIFE HAUNT ME....